"You drove me home and asked me what I missed most about being with someone
and I said holding their hand
and you went quiet and after a solid minute you said you missed being able to grab their ass whenever you wanted
we were so different
and you were so shamelessly honest that
I started laughing so hard I felt like I couldn’t breathe
and your cheeks went red but you brushed it off and grinned at me anyway
you told me the embarrassment was worth seeing me smile again and you missed witnessing my eyes light up like it used to when I talked about him
and then I felt my heart drop when you mentioned his name and your car suddenly got really small and everything hurt again
it hurt so much that
I didn’t notice how your jaw ticked
or how your body went rigid
or how your eyes glossed over
I’m so sorry
I swear I’d love you if I could
and I’d give you everything
but I promise you
its all so broken it isn’t even worth giving."
and I said holding their hand
and you went quiet and after a solid minute you said you missed being able to grab their ass whenever you wanted
we were so different
and you were so shamelessly honest that
I started laughing so hard I felt like I couldn’t breathe
and your cheeks went red but you brushed it off and grinned at me anyway
you told me the embarrassment was worth seeing me smile again and you missed witnessing my eyes light up like it used to when I talked about him
and then I felt my heart drop when you mentioned his name and your car suddenly got really small and everything hurt again
it hurt so much that
I didn’t notice how your jaw ticked
or how your body went rigid
or how your eyes glossed over
I’m so sorry
I swear I’d love you if I could
and I’d give you everything
but I promise you
its all so broken it isn’t even worth giving."